Dedicate this to my other half..

No one has really asked this yet, 

but

this blog is SUPPOSED to be about

US. 

As in me AND my husband. 

I guess I've pretty much taken over this blog, 

and posted things that

yes involve us,

but 

I never really give a complete shot out to the man behind everything. 

As we met in 2004 but started our relationship in 2005

this man has pretty much 

been my everything. 

We've experienced so much together. 

College, Classes, Projects, Europe Trips, 

Different Apartments, Graduations,

Diabetes Diagnosis, Mumps, Jobs, 

Wedding, Buying our first home, 

making new friends,

just to name a few....

We've learned so much about ourselves, about eachother 

and today, 

as he is in Chicago with his best friends, 

and I'm here, taking care of myself, our Kahuna bear, 

and the house (stuff)

I think a 

i.love.you.you're.the.greatest.thing.ever.to.happen.to.me

is in order. 

With out him, I wouldn't be me. 

Rather, it's our husbands, our wives, daughters, fathers, mothers,

sisters, nieces or nephews...(the list could seriously go on forever)

it shouldn't take much for us to 

thank them for all the things they do for us.

both big and small. 

Well this is a big THANK YOU

to my dear husband. 

My life is WONDERFUL because of you. 

In another way of saying how much he means to me, here's some photos

of us throughout the years.. some old, some newer..

 On our wedding day, dancing together.. silly as always..

 Us after a late night working for me, and in our first apartment together.

 Us in 2007 in  Venice, Italy on one of our trips. This was only a few months before

my Type-1 Diagnosis. You can't tell here, but I was already getting sick, and losing weight

in part of the class symptoms. Okay enough about me, more about him.

 Check out that handsome man... This was on the top of the Eiffel Tower

 Us on a date night, here in our 1st home. 

Handsome... 

Thank you Kid (this is OUR term of endearment)

for all you do for me... 

I love you.

BIG THANKS (Update)

I am elated. 

I knew trying to get more involved in my

current community with

diabetes

would bring different emotions.

Mostly "coming out" if you will,

putting myself out there for people to label me 

as a diabetic. 

Not that I haven't been diabetic 

for almost 4 years now

but i'm putting myself,

my diabetes, my diabetes management 

out there for people to read about

and 

even if I am nervous about it

I'm happy. 

Why?

Well today I saw something I haven't felt before.

I logged into my

JDRF walk page to find

I have now raised $707!!!

That is exactly $200 MORE than 

my goal. 

I'm blown away at the support, 

not just financial, 

but the people that WANT 

to make a difference. 

The people who took time, to look at my blog,

to read and look at my table with information regarding Diabetes,

or who asked me my personal history with

Type-1.

I'm excited to know, people care and want a cure

just as badly as I do. 

I was in pump class today, preparing for it by learning all this

stuff, most i already knew. 

(Thanks to you fellow Pump/DOC bloggers)

And after feeling being ripped apart lately by CDE's, 

Dietitian's or other medical staff

I felt happy to know 

I'm working at keeping my 

A1C down and my numbers in good check. 

I know I might have a few weeks yet to see my results of the 

hard work I have been doing, but we're shooting for under 6. Cross your fingers. 

But really, THANK YOU

to all those Type-1 supporters. You're not only helping

ME, personally

but all of those who live with it, care for it and

are scared of it. 

Together, we can fund for the cure. 

-Cassie

D life, not E life,,

Diabetes life is not an Easy life..

I've been having those days, and well, 

weeks

when all day i feel low, when i'm not

don't feel low until

BAM

you fall over,

all of a sudden your dizzy,

your sight seems a little off,

you right hand is started to shake and you're not using it

you lips go numb

you feel this overwhelming 

earthquake within your body just about to BLOW

uggh.. 

I hate it when you can't do anything but shove your 

face and your numbers go up like 3 mg/dl. 

SO ANNOYING

I'm excited to see what is happening before i feel

like the way i do right now,

but seriously

I wish people that don't understand how difficult

diabetes can be, 

can take my shoes on a day like today .

I'd bet they'd want THEIR body back. 

on to another test and probably more 

glucose tabs..

...(fill in clever title here)....

This post is some-what of an 

update-news-busy-felt bad i didn't blog in a while

So, nothing is going on really,

however everything is?

Does that even make sense?

I feel like so much is flying right by us,

yet i feel like 1 day is 6.

I just finished my two weekends of 

fundraising for the JDRF Walk to the Cure

and I'm pretty excited that i continue to 

exceed my goal. 

This is my first year, and as i feel

many as all the diabetes

challenges I am going through this year.

Along those lines, 

I am not the holder of my Medtronic Minimed Paradigm Pump. 

It's all glory in it's blue-ness!!!

Along with that, 3 months of supplies, and 

about 

every single book you can imagine

Oh and my new meter. 

Get this people: I had ONE meter for almost 4 straight years. 

In the past 2 months I have had now 3 more. 

That's CRAZY!

I'm happy to start this new journey in my 

Dlife,

however, all of these doctor appointments each week, 

ARE 

a little draining. 

Like monday, i forgot to call in my blood sugars

from thursday to monday. 

I still haven't called. 

I'll do it on Thursday, tomorrow. 

I love my Endo, but I feel a virtual 

"spanking" 

for not calling. 

Hopefully next time i'll have more to say!

Hope you are all enjoying this 

BEAUTIFUL weather and pray this weekend

is NOT what they are predicting..

rain with a wintery mix. 

BARF...

Diabetes 365

As some of you may know from a previous post

I am attempting the

Diabetes 365 project

by taking a photo every day

related to or something to do with my diabetes. 

I seem to never forget to find someone, or want to use this

and here it is. 

I'm almost one month in and can't wait to 

find out what

all happens in month two!!!

You can see my flicker account 

HERE

in case you're curious.. 

here's some photos..

Thanks for reading!

Just in case you care to know..

this Sunday will be the 

2nd weekend I'll be fundraising for 

Walk to Cure Diabetes 

for the JDRF walk. 

If you are interested in reading my story

and possibly donating to 

this cause

please visit me here:

JDRF Walk- Team Kimler Krew-saders

Thanks again for all your help, advice and support!

-Cassie

Pump.. Pump it up...

Pump up the jam

pump it up

why you're feet are stompin

Anyone else get the Salt n Pepa in your head now?

 I hope so. 

Not that i'm jumping up and down

per say

but I did get news today that

MY PUMP

 

This one to be exact

including the color

is what I will be wearing.. Soon.. very very soon. 

Medtronic has been calling me all week letting me know 

the status of my delivery

the price

and how this delivery will go. 

I will be getting my 3month supply, 

the CGM sensor's as of right now I will get 3 months

but I will have to only get 1 month supply at a time

why, 

who the heck knows..

I think it's stupid. But who am I. 

I'm happy for flexibility, 

and i'm semi- terrified. 

I know why I need to do this, I know this will help

but knowing that I don't mind using my

Humulin and Novolog 

doesn't bother me. 

I'm the person that HATES things on my skin. 

Band Aids- No 

Wraps- NO

Stickers- NO

Tape- Hate it

I do not know how I will deal with not being able to pull it out,

but I need to do this and I will. 

We'll see how long it lasts. 

Either I really enjoy it 

and my fears are swept away

or i do it for the sake

of trying it

and after a period of time

I stop using it. 

I really don't want to stop though

because the money involved to make this happen

and trust me I"m not making millions over here

means i really NEED to do this. 

Okay Body.. let's give this a try!

I find out soon, hopefully, when my start up week is

and pray for me this works, and

i'm not too miserable. 

when you talk and people don't listen...

So in the preparation of the pump

I have been tirelessly 

writing down 

every.

single

thing

I'm

putting in my body. 

ANNOYING. 

So as I am happy to follow through with this

and write everything down like

a good girl

I go in to see the dietitian. 

I'm not sure if i woke up on the wrong side of the bed,

she was a little too "rough" for me

or what

but let's say I didn't feel too good 

having her rip my food charts to 

pieces.

 She made comments about this, that, 

why I have 1% milk and not Skim,

or how did i judge Grinder's bread

compared to my fiber rich super low calorie bread at home.

Or why did you give your banana 15g of carbs here

but here you gave 11g? 

And then proceeded to ask me multiple questions

on why I don't measure using a scale. 

ugghh..

I'm pretty sure I chugged my bottle of water and then refilled it 

in the hall so i stopped myself from talking

as I was getting annoyed. 

She then seemed to get the hint as she told me 

that maybe she is misunderstanding me.

She then told me i need to lower my breakfast

amount to 30g of carbs for breakfast

all while getting an egg, milk, fruit and a whole grain.

DIABETICS, please tell me HOW YOU DO THIS. 

I'm mean, i'd have to eat like a flippin rabbit. 

Sorry. All of you wonderful non-diabetics, 

look at your breakfast tomorrow, just check out the carbohydrate count and

think to yourself

if I can only eat 30g what can I eat. 

So much for my 42g of Fiber cereal for Breakfast. 

Sorry for the rambling. Sometimes it's soo easy to feel that

someone with out diabetes is

picking all of your hard

work apart. 

Then the dietitian proceeded to tell the Pump Educator

that she doesn't need to really see me again because

I am doing so well.

UGGHH...Really?