where's my hard work going...

Sometimes I feel like stranger in my own body

when I know how hard I work at 

keeping my bloodsugars 

within a healthy range and then no matter

how hard I try, or

what things I change 

I continue to feel discouraged..

case in point 

1. I started to drink protein/boost drinks

in the am to help keep my morning bloodsugars lowers, 

because they have been running super high 

and I can't figure out why it is happening. 

It's not what I eat. It's not stress.

It isn't how i'm sleeping. 

I. do.not.get.it

Hopefully my new endo can help. But I don't get 

to see her until Tuesday. 

And as of Jan 2nd this was the earliest I could see her. 

2. I hate taking more and more insulin, to eat

three slices of bread for dinner 

(well I made pizza out of it)

and just tea with splenda

and regardless my am bs is STILL HIGH.

I.give.up

3. Yesterday, as I went to pick up my insulin from my

joke of a  awesome pharmacy

they proceeded to yet again

give me my insulin from

the flippin racks.

Maybe I'm just SUPER

anal regarding the fact that I want my insulin to come straight 

from the fridge. And it didn't. 

I told them is this the new protocol for insulin and that I am not happy with this

can I fill out a comment card..

maybe some other explenation happened too. 

Then what does the pharmacist say?

As rudely as one human can, 

He sighed so ALL the other people in line could hear him

and said, "FINE, I'll give YOU ones from the Fridge"

as he roughly threw my existing insulin boxes

on the counter. 

Why does it take 3 times and reminders and comment cards

for people to realize they shouldn't

mess with a Diabetic's 

insulin?

Does anyone else have this problem? So am I the only one who doesn't

have a mail order pharmacy to use.

UGGHhh...

Sometimes no matter how alone you aren't, this disease can 

make you feel it, when you don't have answers 

and people don't seem to listen.

working towards a cure...

As many of you might know, 

I have Type-1 Diabetes. 

This year has been many years of change

and aspects of my life

that are now starting to 

be more of a 

steady foundation. 

Austin landed a job he loves, 

we moved out of our apartment

and bought our first house. 

We added to the family

by adopting 

Kahuna

our White German Shepard.

While many things have been firsts for us, 

one thing that isn't new, 

is my diabetes. 

As yes, with any chronic disease or illness, 

I have ups and downs. Mostly never ups,

but I must manage to 

stay alive. 

This year I am working harder 

to raise more awareness of this disease and

hope that in my lifetime

children will no longer have diabetes. 

teenagers will be able to have those sleep overs

and eat the snacks other kids do.

that college students can hang out with there friends

at all hours and not have to worry about blood sugars.

Type-1 diabetics will no longer exist and

women who want to get or who already are pregnant won't have to 

worry about the complications of diabetes on them or

their unborn children.

Families can be families and not count carbs, give or draw up insulin. 

With this, I hope you as my wonderful readers will read my story 

HERE!!!

and sponsor me for

the WALK to Cure Juvenile Diabetes...

Thank you all for your help, support, donations and prayers...

-Cassie and Austin-