Getting nervous... Pump Day T-4 days

So, now that the cat is out of the bag,

you all know I am not only going on the pump

but also

having a BABY!!!

Well, my decision to go on the insulin pump

Medtronic Minimed Paradigm Revel

or this:

Well, I don't actually think I want it. 

I'm actually honestly a little 

terrified of it. 

Like I told my endo this morning at my bi weekly appointment,

I'm nervous of loosing good control to gain good control. 

I'm doing good on my own, but I'm taking

all of the advice I have heard

from pretty much 

ANYONE 

who has ever heard of Diabetes or an Insulin Pump

that the pump makes your life

so much easier. 

Well, I'm not convinced yet. 

It's not the technology, it's not the information

it's not seeing every blood sugar reading

i don't really want to see,

it's things like...

having my diabetes be out for EVERYONE to see,

for more questions to be asked,

for someone pulling it out in public, 

for having something STICKING to me 24/7.

People, ask anyone that knows me, 

i can barely wear SOCKS. 

Yes. I don't like stuff ON my skin. 

I know this might help me later, and 

like most diabetics who are trying to get pregnant or

who are currently pregnant

we want the BEST blood sugars we can get. 

My Pump Educator helped answer some more questions,

outlined the rules I must follow like..

must take blood sugar every 2 hours, before all meals, 2hr after each meal,

each time i snack, when I go to bed, when i wake up, and at midnight, 3am and

when I feel nauseous, and call it in each time.

do not exercise

eat my set amount of carbs only.

snack 3-6 times a day

(on top of meals)

my favorite:

Do NOT leave the Quad Cities within the next 3 weeks, 

including for work. 

just to name a few. 

I'm nervous. I'm a little scared. 

I'm nervous for the mistakes i can't treat yet. 

I'm nervous to see a high blood sugar and worry about the baby

( yes i know, ONE high BS don't hurt the baby)

I'm just nervous. 

This isn't for me though, it's the first most unselfish thing I think i've done.

for the baby. 

Besides opening the bottle of Skinny Girl Margarita just to smell it. 

Pray that things go well Monday.

Think about me at Noon when I am 

officially a pumper. 

How my life has changed in the last three months, here come some more. 

Thanks for checking in!

-Cassie

Two plus One equals Three.......

First it started with a couple doctor visits..

then it started with meeting a new 

Endocrinologist...

and her idea of what might be happening and how she can help...

Then it started with making a Diabetes Educator/ Dietitian 

appointment across the hallway...

and to inform them I would be entering the 

Pump world, as a Type 1 Diabetic new Pumper....

Then it was a visit to my

medical doctor to review how everything has been going,

what the plan would be for her 

leaving and finding a new doctor

and then quickly went to something that looked like this:

After that it went quickly to my first

prenatal visit for 

a ultrasound

and from  there

we have been busy. 

Between Endocrinologist appointments every two weeks, 

multiple visits with the dietitian, Diabetes Educator, Pump training,

Pump classes, OBGYN appointments, Packets given, 

and after multiple blood tests...

 we then saw you..

Mommy and Daddy are very happy to have you

and to make you part of our lives and family. 

To those that might just be following,

this pregnancy will  be one that

will have much to overcome and 

challenges along the way. 

I am type one diabetic,

 and 

a high risk pregnancy. 

I do want to warn or inform you, 

that Austin and I have decided to help other

Type 1's or diabetics in this process

with our experience. 

As no pregnancy or woman are the same, 

I am hoping to recap for you what has happened so far, 

and details for what will come. 

I hope you will stick with us, 

support us, 

provide advice or comments our way

and enjoy the journey we are on 

and an exciting one it will be. 

Thank you to all our readers, for what you do for us

and for reading about our life. 

Cassie and Austin.