Thursday, May 5, 2011

Getting nervous... Pump Day T-4 days

So, now that the cat is out of the bag,
you all know I am not only going on the pump
but also
having a BABY!!!

Well, my decision to go on the insulin pump
Medtronic Minimed Paradigm Revel
or this:

Well, I don't actually think I want it. 
I'm actually honestly a little 
terrified of it. 

Like I told my endo this morning at my bi weekly appointment,
I'm nervous of loosing good control to gain good control. 

I'm doing good on my own, but I'm taking
all of the advice I have heard
from pretty much 
who has ever heard of Diabetes or an Insulin Pump
that the pump makes your life
so much easier. 

Well, I'm not convinced yet. 
It's not the technology, it's not the information
it's not seeing every blood sugar reading
i don't really want to see,

it's things like...

having my diabetes be out for EVERYONE to see,
for more questions to be asked,
for someone pulling it out in public, 
for having something STICKING to me 24/7.

People, ask anyone that knows me, 
i can barely wear SOCKS. 
Yes. I don't like stuff ON my skin. 

I know this might help me later, and 
like most diabetics who are trying to get pregnant or
who are currently pregnant
we want the BEST blood sugars we can get. 

My Pump Educator helped answer some more questions,
outlined the rules I must follow like..

must take blood sugar every 2 hours, before all meals, 2hr after each meal,
each time i snack, when I go to bed, when i wake up, and at midnight, 3am and
when I feel nauseous, and call it in each time.

do not exercise

eat my set amount of carbs only.

snack 3-6 times a day
(on top of meals)

my favorite:
Do NOT leave the Quad Cities within the next 3 weeks, 
including for work. 

just to name a few. 

I'm nervous. I'm a little scared. 
I'm nervous for the mistakes i can't treat yet. 
I'm nervous to see a high blood sugar and worry about the baby
( yes i know, ONE high BS don't hurt the baby)

I'm just nervous. 

This isn't for me though, it's the first most unselfish thing I think i've done.
for the baby. 

Besides opening the bottle of Skinny Girl Margarita just to smell it. 

Pray that things go well Monday.
Think about me at Noon when I am 
officially a pumper. 

How my life has changed in the last three months, here come some more. 

Thanks for checking in!


  1. Looks like you mom (me) will be coming to see you this month.... but im fine with that.. maybe this time i will bring your dad... maybe... i will pray for everything to go well.. and I LOVE YOU!!!

  2. I've been pumping for just over three years - and I felt EXACTLY the way you did about getting a pump. I was so terrified! And you know what? Nothing I was worried about came true!! Sure, there are still times it gets annoying - but daily injections were annoying at times too. Heck, diabetes is annoying!!!! I really really think within the first few days all of your fears and reservations will melt away - just like mine did.

    Good luck to you!!