Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Letter to our baby...

If you missed my first post with 
the Diabetes Blog Week
 you can check it out 

Here is the topic for today: In February the Wego Blog Carnival asked participants to write letters to their condition.  You can write a letter to diabetes if you’d like, but we can also take it one step further.  How about writing a letter to a fictional (or not so fictional) endocrinologist telling the doctor what you love (or not) about them.  How about a letter to a pretend (or again, not so pretend) meter or pump company telling them of the device of your dreams?  Maybe you’d like to write a letter to your child with diabetes.  Or a letter from your adult self to the d-child you were.  Whomever you choose as a recipient, today is the day to tell them what you are feeling.

I am writing my letter to our baby. 
Dear Baby, 
    I know for you I am just a regular mommy in training. You hear my heart beat, you feel my breaths in and out. You can sometimes hear daddy or Kahuna too. Sorry about daddy's music choices. To you, nothing seems out of ordinary. Maybe you notice sometimes mommy gets shaky, to you it might feel like an earthquake. Don't worry, I'll explain more when you're older. Maybe sometimes you feel weak like mommy? I'm sorry baby that even though you don't know any different, your mommy is different. Some people might call her special, or a miracle( more like YOU'RE a miracle) but there is something about YOUR mommy that makes her different than the others. I'm sorry you have to fight along with me to battle those earth quake feeling times, or the times where maybe for you everything seems to be still. Your mommy is special because she has this silly thing call Diabetes. Don't worry, I am doing my best to make sure you don't feel all my ups and downs, and lucky for you those silly finger sticks. Your mommy will always have this thing with her body that makes her poke her fingers, put a needle in her belly every few days, and give her body the medicine she needs. Don't worry baby this isn't your fault, this is something that just happened to your mommy. I want you to know, that despite the differences between your mommy and daddy, we both love you and love watching you grow. We are both making sure you are safe, healthy and have enough energy to keep growing big and strong. Mommy worries that some day you might have to feel what she feels, but hopefully you get daddy's great genes and won't have to worry about it. Always know baby, that even though your mommy is special in her own way, that you are loved, cared for and will always be the most important part in your parents lives. We love you before you can see us, we love you before you can yell at us, and most of all we love you before you know how great this life can really be. Thanks for letting me be your mommy, and for daddy to be yours!! Keep growing!!!

Love your Mommy and Daddy!!!

I can't help but always think
about the thought
maybe one day
my child will have to learn
what my life is like. 
I hope this doesn't happen. 
I wish we knew ways
to help prevent this. 
I know that by reading sixuntilme
and what she is trying
for her daughter to 
do what she can
to prevent this but
is there something else?
Why do her doctors know that this might help
or that it can't hurt to try
but for me
they all tell me how hard
or difficult 
a gluten free diet is. 

I told them, 
who cares how bad it might taste,
or how much I might not like it. 
Doing ANYTHING to stop or prevent or prolong
a Type 1 Diagnoses 
is worth crappy 
However, i've tried one recently
on purpose
and guess what..

It was delicious. 

Maybe I just wish I didn't have it so bad
I will sacrifice anything
to make sure
even if it is a 5% 
chance, that 5% chance is worth it. 

Have you learned anything about
what you can do to help your
child or children 
fight or ward off
even temporarily
a type one diagnosis? 

Thanks for reading:)


  1. Aww. Sweet letter. It's not easy to be a mom with diabetes--juggling a poopy diaper and a bottle of glucose tablets is...an adventure. And the hard stuff is hard...vaccinations, dietary choices, and breastfeeding are tough decisions for all moms but when you throw in the "I don't want my kid to have to deal with this" card, it's a whole other story. My best advice is to learn what you can, and trust your gut.

  2. OK im crying... what a wonderful letting of love...We will be with you the whole way baby...